With all the changes Boogs has been going through, we decided to also take her papi (pacifier) away. This is something I've wanted her to kick around 12 months, but just couldn't get myself to do it when it helped her go to sleep in .2 seconds. At least she's attached to a papi and not her thumb...you can take a papi away, but you can't take a thumb away.
So tonight, I put her down saying, "Big girls don't need papis. Boogs go ni-ni, okay? Mommy loves you" I shut the door behind me and left, listening intently through the monitor. At first she was fine. Talking to herself and singing, but after a couple minutes...BLOODY MURDER. I listened through the monitor as my heart ached from cries that I hadn't heard in a LONG time. I remember when we first started to sleep train Boogs. Yobes asked me if we should get her after a couple minutes and as much as my heart broke to hear the shrilling cries coming out of such a little thing, I told him, "unless your boobs are making milk and you're gonna get up to feed her in the middle of the night, we're doing it my way." He shut up real quick and before we knew it, we had a 7 week old that had slept her first stretch of 7 hours during the night (and it only got longer from there). I remembered those days and thought if I just let her cry it out for 15 minutes, she'll be okay. I went to check on her 15 minutes later. Mid-cry, Boogs looked up, "Mommy," and laid back down as I rubbed her back. Now that she was in her big girl bed, I laid down next to her and within 10 seconds, she was out. I think the crying wore her out so when she saw me, she was comforted - forgetting the comfort she used to get from her papi.
So first night without a papi, not so easy but not too bad either. I think it'll still take a little bit for her to get used to going down without one, but 15 minutes isn't all that bad all things considered.


